Thursday, September 25, 2014


I have never in my life heard anyone complain about making MORE money. My boss has done nothing but complain all week about the phones ringing. Every time it rings it is someone scheduling to bring material in but the thing is that everything that comes in, she makes commissions on, so why is she complaining about more money?

I have been toying with more ideas for how to be a stay at home mom. I really want to be my own boss. I am tired of listening to my boss get an attitude with me about things and talking to me like I am a piece of crap on her shoe. I don't deserve that. I have to work harder to get my business going and get out of this place. I don't care if I work all day at my day job and all night at my business to get it going. I have to do something. I can't take it anymore.

I have several things in mind to get going but have to get them made. I am going to do advertising bags and deliver but I will also do some for my business too. I should be able to get the bags done with no problem and can deliver on my lunch breaks and such. I will have to work it out. And I will work it out. I have been fighting the urge to punch someone in the throat all day. Have to keep moving forward. Motivation baby.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

I once was lost but now I am found....sort of

I did a lot of soul searching and went from Barefoot Books to Avon to Thirty-One and could not get parties booked and could not get orders. Like I was saying before, no one has the money for those items. My husband told me to stop wasting my time with these companies and look into something that is more me. I thought about it and the reason I wanted to do home parties was because I wanted to get to the point where I could be a stay at home mom and work for myself. But there was a problem. I wanted to get away from work for a corporation where I am doing all the work and making money for them and waiting to get paid. Doing direct sales I was working for a corporation where I was doing all the work and making them money and still waiting to get paid. If I want to get away from that then why was I moving on to the same situation. It didn't make sense once I thought about it.

I have been doing my plastic canvas for about 10 years now so I have a website where I sell the crafts I have made. I also will be adding sewn items and embroidered items to the website too. I want to make things like what Thirty-One has to offer but more affordable. Most people can't afford to spend $75 on a bag. Most do good to spend $30 on a bag. I want to offer a more affordable option. Plus with direct sales, it seems like I was getting little to no help. They wanted me to book parties but when I would ask for help on ideas they would tell me to book with family and friends or book my own. When I tell them that no one would book parties and that I did my own and no one booked off of it because no one showed up they would tell me to book with family and friends or would not answer at all. help.

I decided to do things my own way and have made more money selling my crafts than I did with Barefoot Books, Avon, and Thirty-One combined and I was able to do something that I did normally sitting on my couch watching TV with my family. Didn't even have to leave the house. With direct sales you are limited to what you can do because you have to go by their guidelines. With my own business I can do things the way that I want. Now just to get things going full time.

Monday, May 16, 2011

I think I found something.....

I have been looking into some of the home party groups and not able to spend money buying kits and most of the people that I know don't have the money to buy what I am selling. I also wanted something that I could do online for a while first. I didn't want to spend money that I didn't have to get started and then it not work out. I found Barefoot Children's Books. I called the home office number and started asking questions. There was not start up fee. There are kits that you can buy but you don't have to. That means that I can work mainly online like I was wanting.

Anyways, I hope that this works out for me. I would love to be a stay at home mom again. I miss being here with my kids. I have memories of sitting on the porch watching it rain with my grandparents while my mom worked all of the time. I don't want my kids to only have memories of mommy always working or being too tired to have fun with them because of being so exhausted.

I am looking for a few people to help me out in getting my name out there and anyone that helps will get a 20% discount on any orders that they place on my site. Just email me for info. My website is Check it out and tell me what you think.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Still lookin.....

I am still looking for myself. Apparently I heard that I was looking for myself and hid from myself. I have been looking at things to do from home. Everything from taking online classes to doing home parties. I decided on home parties. I am going to try selling Party Lite for a little while and see how that works out. I have until March 17th to get $350 in orders and I get my kit for free. Then I get to do my online parties and start making money. Let's see how this goes. Wish me luck.

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Well today is a little bit better as far as my depression goes but still a little down in the dumps. I have been looking into new crafts to try and started looking at crocheting. Now I did that before but was young and I think that I would be able to do it now. I just wanna do this on the side. I have been looking into selling Mark and I don't think that is going to be for me. It is the same as selling Avon and that was just not working. So now it is off to the next thing to look into.

Now when I am looking into things, I weight the pros and cons and also do my research on how many people in my area are selling it, how well things like that might sell, the price of the items that they offer (because I look at it as would I have the money to buy the items and if not then I stop looking into that certain one) and talk to some of the representatives to get their input on the items. I don't just jump into something that I know I am going to have to put money out on.

Another thing that I am looking into is going back to school. I just don't know if I will be able to handle work and taking classes. I will have to take my classes online so that I can do it from home. I will looking at that tomorrow and see what I can find out so expect an update soon.

Friday, July 9, 2010


Today was kinda hard. All day it seemed like everything that could go wrong did. I have wanted to do nothing all day but cry. I don't know who I am anymore. How did I lose myself? I don't even know where to start.

I keep thinking about how my life changed when I met my husband. When I met him, he taught me how to think for myself and taught me that it was OK to think good things about myself. He taught me that I don't have to do what everyone wants me to do. He told me that it was OK for me to be happy even if other people don't like my decisions. That is why I love him.

I have been talking to one of my friends from high school that is going through the same thing. She has decided to sell Avon and see how that goes for her. I don't wanna sell that but she told me about The Mark line and I think that I will try that. It is only $10 to get started and I have that already. If it doesn't work out then it is only $10 that I am out. I can handle that loss to try to re-establish myself.

I know that I am not the same person that I was ten years ago. You will probably hear me say that a lot in this journey. I know that what will happen is that I will be redefining myself. I have trouble sleeping at night worrying about all of the everyday things like bills, making sure my van makes it back and forth to work, etc.

Where do I start? I really don't know where to go from here. I am just taking it day by day and hope that I don't mess things up too bad that I forget what my goal is. I am glad, though, that I have my family and my wonderful friends to help me on this quest to help me keep my goal in sight and maybe succeed in more ways than I could ever imagine.

Finding myself...

I knew going into this quest that finding myself was going to be a hard thing to do. I have been married for nine years and have a wonderful husband and two beautiful little girls but I want to be known for more that just being a wife and a mother. Don't get me wrong, these two things are wonderful accomplishments but the thing is that I forgot who I am. I know that I love to sell things but the thing is that I don't know who I am and I think that has something to do with my anxiety and depression.

How can someone forget who they are? I feel so lost sometimes. Work gets my mind off of it for a little while but I don't want to be in a dead end job forever. I want more for my family and for myself. Am I wrong for this?

When I was growing up, the majority of my memories of my mother were of her being at work. She was there for things like Chorus shows but when it came to being able to go and do things as a family, it was my brother, myself and my grandparents more that it was with her. I don't want my children to have the memories of me not being there for them. I love being with my kids. I am not looking for something where I can just not ever have to do anything to make money again. I just want something that I can be proud of. Something that is mine. Something that when my kids see it can say, "my mommy did this." My husband is a carpenter and there are houses all over the area that we live that we can drive around and see that he built. What have I done? I have tried college and had to quit to go back to work. Working ten hour days for nine dollars an hour is not my idea of the perfect life.

I am chronicling my quest for self exploration. My goal is to either find myself or at the least redefine myself. I know that I am not the same person that I was ten years ago but at least I can figure out who I have grown into being.

Wish me luck.